Sometimes I wonder if I need to add ‘Do you fall in love with all your clients?’ to my FAQs. The answer’s yes. It feels worth clarifying.
Said crying study (see previous blog on crying) began with that ‘laugh and the world laughs with you..’ adage. I’m all for weeping in company, but I like the adage - there’s so much truth in that first bit.
I like crying. I find it useful, inevitable, cathartic. Someone close to me was in hospital recently. I spent a lot of time trying not to cry – I didn’t want to worry her. But it had to come. I went to choir practice. As we rehearsed a gentle, loving song I found myself doing that coming from right deep inside snot crying on a choir buddy’s shoulder. It was a turning point. The next day it felt like something had shifted and I coped O so much better with hospitalised loved one. My choir buddy had let me know it was unsurprising I was so distressed – anyone would have been. I felt optimistic again; less overwrought, normal.
“Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.” ― Viktor E. Frankl, Man's Search for Meaning
I hate that word - should.
My level-headed, accepting, tolerant self has observed my overwhelmed self over the last few months. It’s this website. You’d think someone with a fair bit of web experience and an eye for design would be more than capable of putting together a website – but this one’s different. This is my website, my livelihood, my ethos, about me. I’ve had to work through some stuff, I’ve learned loads, it’s been a journey.
It’s February, the weather is awful and every day I practise being grateful I have not suffered the devastation, loss and disorder others have in the storms and flooding in parts of the country.